Back on track

Right then. Well the radio silence over September and October has been due to a long period of non-news. After two rounds of the new-style chemotherapy, my blood counts crashed to worrying levels. So then it was week after week of blood tests to see if they'd recovered. They hadn't.

Finally, two weeks ago, after another blood test showed that the counts were still not strong enough to resume chemo, the doctor called time on it - no more chemotherapy, it was doing too much damage. Chemotherapy was off the table. This was all a bit scary - are we running out of options here? No, there's always more radiotherapy, and even possibly more surgery. But still...

So what's the plan? Wait until the next head scan and go from there, depending on the results.

The head scan was yesterday. And it was good news! Things are looking "a little bit better", AND blood counts have recovered sufficiently to push on with the chemo, at a slightly lower dose that shouldn't have such drastic effects.

The relief is overwhelming. I was prepared for the worst yesterday, and actually it was quite the opposite. For the last fortnight, morale has been low. But yesterday was a real morale boost. I feel like I've been rebooted! It's really weird to be pleased about the prospect of chemotherapy, but in the  words of the doctor, "it's working". That's good enough for me. I'm ready. Bring it on!